At the Orientation Fair I signed up to audition for OrphanSporks, one of the two co-ed a cappella groups at Rutgers. As I walked away with Rennie I said, "I am such a chicken shit when it comes to auditioning, but I have to do this. I will do this."

I don't know if I can do this. It's simple. I just go in there next week, sing a song a cappella, sing some scales and harmonize with other members.

But ... what song do I sing? I mean, I have to find the one perfect song for my range, one that's not too low for me, so when I get nervous and my voice gets shaky I can try to salvage it. And I haven't done scales in forever. And harmonizing! So nerve-wracking. I mean, this is all stuff I can do, but can I actually do it when it counts.

Auditions freak me out.